As we come to the end of 2020, a year that has been tumultuous and difficult in ways we all know, my impulse is to kick the old year in the rear and unceremoniously slam the door behind it. Instead, I want to remember the blessings that came my way, so that I can welcome 2021 with my heart open and my gratitude foremost.
Those blessings? What comes to mind first are the Guy and his dog and horses. I who was perfectly happy to live the rest of my life solo now have a loving partnership again with a man who shares my bond with these Rocky Mountain landscapes, with the literature that rises from them, and who also shares my need for time in the wild.
For my birthday, he gifted me with four days in the remote Washakie Wilderness of northwest Wyoming, just southeast of Yellowstone, where I worked as a young field ecologist. It was pure heaven. Our long-distance relationship isn’t simple, but the rewards are beyond words. My heart is full, and my understanding of the world is enriched by his company, knowledge, and insights.
Another blessing has been time with friends and family, much of that virtual. But in these socially distanced COVID-19 times, the connection with the people I love and whose company nurtures me is so critical.
I treasure the in-person time so much more now that it’s rare. Visits like the walk I took yesterday (masked and socially distanced) with the memoirist Kati Standefer are what sustain me in these challenging days, mind, body, and spirit. (If you haven’t read her stunning debut memoir, Lightning Flowers, do. You’ll understand why Oprah picked it as one of the top 100 books for the year, and it was an Editor’s Choice book at the New York Times Book Review, plus landed Kati on NPR’s Fresh Air.)
We trekked up a dry stream-bed near her house at the base of a red sandstone ridge, talking about life and writing and memoir, why we need solitude and the wild and what love is worth, anyway. We hung out with her chickens, and discovered a shared love for Stranahan’s whisky. I found the large heart rock in the stream-bed and lugged it back, knowing somehow it should come home with me.
I needed that high a few hours later when I learned that my friend and writing inspiration, Barry Lopez, had died the day before. It’s been that kind of high-slammed-by-lows year, and I am so fortunate to have a community who cheers me on. Thank you all.
Another blessing has been time on the land. I live in the rural West, outside Santa Fe in the winter, and in northwest Wyoming in the summer. In between, I spend time on the Guy’s farm, getting to know a whole new landscape in the broad swath of the sagebrush county I call home. Living where there are few people and lots of open space makes it easier to stay safe in COVID-times, and means I get abundant vitamin N, time in nature, to keep me healthy and reasonably sane amidst the tumult of the larger world.
Then there’s the gift of seeing my new memoir, Bless the Birds: Living with Love in a Time of Dying, come to life with a beautiful cover and an inviting page design. And the generosity of fellow authors writing advance praise for BtB. Best-selling novelist Jane Kirkpatrick wrote,
Bless the Birds is the book for our times. It’s a splendid blend of landscapes, relationships, creative work, and spirituality–finding meaning in life framed by an awareness of death. I have a dozen people I want to share this authentic, honest, hopeful memoir with. You will too. It’s a treasure.
I am honored that this memoir, my thirteenth book, resonates with writers whose work I admire. (The book is due out in April, and if you are so moved you can pre-order it through Amazon, Bookshop–which supports independent bookstores–or your local bookstore.)
And in this year of so many endings, but also new beginnings, I am grateful for this beautiful new website, courtesy of my multi-talented and generous friends Tony and Maggie Niemann of Tracks Software. I’m not sure what I did to deserve Tony and Maggie, but I truly appreciate them!
One more gift of this difficult year: a new appreciation of simply being here. Alive, relatively healthy, and comfortable. I can take a walk in the near-wild every day. I can write, laugh, read, ride, cook, and love. I have faith that 2021 will bring positive changes. For all of these things, I am truly grateful.
May the new year bring us all chances to be kind, compassionate, and live with our hearts outstretched. Be well!
8 thoughts on “2020: Remembering the good parts”
Susan Schoch says:
Great new website! And I always appreciate your thoughtful view, Susan. So glad for the gifts you’ve found in this year. New Year blessings headed your way.
Susan Tweit says:
Thank you, Susan S! Blessings of this new year to you and yours as well. And a warm hug….
You’re right. There’s much to be thankful for. Clearly you are moving forward in the right direction.
Susan Tweit says:
Lynn, Thank you. I’m certainly working on moving in a good direction. This year it takes more effort than usual… Happy almost 2021 to you!
Janet Caplan says:
Hi Susan ..great to read your post and to learn that you’re doing well. I have pre-ordered your book and look forward to reading it in the spring. I still remember the writing course that I took from you some years ago, with much appreciation…one of the best ever.
Susan Tweit says:
Hi, Janet, Thank you for that lovely compliment, and for pre-ordering Bless the Birds! I hope that all’s well in your life and that you’re writing still. Blessings, Susan
Sharon Lovejoy says:
Thank goodness your blog is now more accessible.
I loved this posting. It touched my heart. I’m mourning the loss of Barry Lopez and just wondering if the fire in his Oregon river sanctuary and the destruction of so much he loved, contributed to his passing.
I’m also counting my blessings and you are one of them.
Susan Tweit says:
Sharon, And you are one of my blessings! As for Barry, who I still speak to in my mind every day, I am sure that having to evacuate in the night with flames all around and then coming back to see his beloved old-growth forest charred, plus the loss of the outbuildings including his archives, contributed to his death. He had lived with prostate cancer for so long–and then came COVID and the fires. Like the horsemen of the apocalypse…. Love to you!